Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Purpose…

Here’s a sticky question for my Tuesday morning rant and rave…

What is your purpose?

This could be pregnancy…

Or too much time away from my friends and family…

Or a new house…

Or a new job…

Or any of the myriad of wonderful things that are going on around me…

But I am quite focused on this question…

What is my purpose?

I’ve watched as the lives of a few people I love have disintegrated over the last few months…and I’ve been trying to figure out WHY this thing happens.

What happens that we lose the motivation to live the way that enriches our lives?

What happens in a life that makes a person go from a vital, active, person full of life to somebody who gets up late, doesn’t shower and spends the day in front of the internet, the tv, video games, a bottle of alcohol, meaningless “friendships” with the wrong people, random sex…and the list goes on and on?

I have to ask myself…what keeps me from that place? Sure, I’ve had my occasional lazy Sunday, but generally, I like to get up and get going. Life is so full of promise…there are things to done and people to see and stuff to be organized or created or discovered.

I cannot imagine how hopeless a life must feel, day in and day out, with this monotony of nothing to motivate, nothing to give a person a reason to LIVE rather than exist.

And I asked myself…what is MY purpose? Why do I have ambition? Why is it important to me to feel alive?

There are lots of things….

I like the feeling of checking things off “the list”…my master list of things that need doing…

I like the feeling of looking around my home and seeing the evidence that I’ve been a good steward of God’s amazing blessing to me by keeping it in order and clean and tidy.

I like stumbling upon new concepts, being touched by the Word of God in my reading, and seeing things a new way for the first time.

I like that “AH HA!” moment..

I enjoy solving the puzzles of life and I love hearing the voices of my friends and family as they share their lives with me.

I enjoy being with other people…the relationships and the struggles and realization that we are all so very much alike.

I am driven to make a difference in my tiny little spot of the world…

I am driven to care deeply about the people and places and things that God has brought into my life at this season, to appreciate what they have to bring to my microcosm and to be touched by and learn from the moments they create…

If a stranger came to my street and drove into my driveway, I’d want him to see a well-kept yard, a clean and tidy home, to be welcomed with a friendly smile from a face that is ready for the day and offered a cold drink over which to converse.

To me, these things say, “I know I am blessed and as long as these are my blessings, I will care for them to the best of my ability.”

Somebody once said to me, “You are all the God that some people will ever see in their life time.”

And I ask myself…when I live my life in the day to day, does the way I live speak to the fact that I know Jesus? Does the way I live show others that I know I’m blessed beyond measure – not because I earned it, but because of God’s Grace?

Do I wake up each morning and set out for my day with that thought in my mind – Today, I may be all the “God” that somebody sees…

Well…no…

But I think that IS my purpose…to live my life fully appreciative of my wondrous blessings and to willingly be an open, sharing, helpful, diligent, mindful, loving, consistent, child of God…

Hmmmm….

Peace, everyone!

1 comment:

karen said...

girl you should write a book! or at least do motivational speaking--you'd make millions I tell ya!

Hey--I have a new blog too....