Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Out of Order

Sometimes when I put things here, I never know how it will be taken….

Things I enjoy much are not commented on and things I think are my crazy rants touch people…

I will say this, in light of my life recently…God has some pretty unusual timing.

He does things in ways that make NO sense to me…no sense to anyone…and yet, they work, they flow, in the chaos of it all, things click…

Something is happening in my world...completely out of balance, out of order…

Michael Yaconelli talks about life out of balance, out of order in Messy Spirituality:

Balance sounds like a characteristic of the Christian faith, like a goal to seek after or a quality worth cultivating. Balance sounds like a worthy ideal, a perfect description of a healthy follower of Christ.

Beware of balance.

Balance is a dangerous, illusionary characteristic and a temptress. Disguised as normal and sensible, it is silently destructive, crushing the unbalance of giftedness, taming the extremes of passion, smothering the raging fire of a genuine relationship with Jesus. Jesus was constantly criticized for being unbalanced. Think about it: Jesus could have healed six days a week and not upset anyone. People would have been just as healed on the second day of the week as they were on the Sabbath. Jesus could have sat down with the temple leaders and quietly discussed his theological reasoning for not allowing the place of worship to become a carnival of commerce. Instead he crashed like a crazy man with a whip and knocked over the tables, screaming and yelling and creating chaos. He certainly could have been more balanced.


This inspires me to embrace those things that are out of balance in my life right now.

I’m trying to revel in the moments of here and now that are completely out of order, completely unbalanced…

I’m finding the joy in God’s timing, in God’s way, in the indisputable knowledge that He would not bring things in this way if He did not intend to see them finished, see them bring Glory to His name, work them all out for good.

One thing is for sure…the working out of these things, out of order – for some very strange reason, my control-freak-everything-in-its-place nature is ok with this. Its ok. Its wonderful even...

It’s just NOT the way I would have chosen. It’s not the timing I would have chosen. It’s not the safety I would have chosen.

But it will be beautiful and beyond a doubt an undeniable work of God as it is completed.

Amen…

Peace, everyone!

7 comments:

Samantha said...

As if I didn't find you enough of a kindred spirit, you go and quote Yac on me. I love him. He was every youth pastor (and youth pastor's wife's) best friend, the guy who made all the crazy stuff make sense and always said it in a way that made so much sense.
Congrats on the out of order good stuff.

Christine said...

hmmmm...

amazing grace said...

hmm.....now i am wondering....

karen said...

okay girl spill it!

Melissa said...

Wow, I haven't blogged in a while and I stumble upon this entry.
Are you ok?
I will pray for you :)
E-mail me if you want
HUGS

Gina said...

Did I ever need this. Thanks.

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